You may have heard, I write a little blog. I’m not being cute when I say little, I’m being honest. My blog gets a little traffic. I know this because every time I log in to write a post, I see my daily stats. So, last week I logged in as usual and, hang on a minute, there must be something wrong. A quick investigation and stats don’t lie. On one day, I had over 1,300 views of one post! It seems another Facebook page had shared my post on socialising with chronic pain and it was getting some traffic.
As it so happened, on that very same day I noticed a post I had written about fibro funk (which had been republished by The Mighty) had been shared over 3,700 times!
Now I’m not telling you this to big note myself. (Although, if someone else wants to tell me how cool it is, I’d be totally fine with that.) The reason I’m mentioning this is because it is so easy to feel alone. When I first became sick I felt completely alone. I was staying with my parents and was so lucky to have countless family and friends around to help, but I still felt very alone. I wasn’t like everyone else any more, this time I was really sick. My body was shutting down on me and the drugs I was taking to try and combat this were causing my brain to give in as well (or so it felt). When I was finally diagnosed, nobody I knew had ever heard of fibromyalgia (myself included), so how were they really going to help me, in my soul?
I soon became educated on my condition as did those around me. I enlisted the help of a team of great medical professionals, and found a supportive online community of those fighting the same or similar condition. After a while, I wasn’t so alone anymore. But, don’t be fooled, it is so easy to fall back into the feeling of ‘I’m all alone’. One bad flare and the alone feeling can hit you like a tonne of bricks. Right out of nowhere.
At times like this, when I can’t get out and see my friends, when I don’t have the energy to connect with people online, it’s important to remind myself that I’m not the only. And I know this because there are a hell of a lot of people out there reading about and sharing my thoughts and (much as I’d like to take credit for my amazing writing skills) I know it’s because these people connect with what I’m saying, because they are/have been there themselves.
You are not alone.